Now just in case you think I’m permanently bouncy or unendingly joyful, allow me to set things straight.
As I sit here typing this post all I really want to do is grab the nearest cheese grater and shear the skin off my face!!!
No, I haven’t gone mad.
So you see, even though I’m generally an optimistic little person, I also feel down in the dumps sometimes 😦
I’d never had eczema in my life before, until about two weeks ago when my face exploded overnight in a bright red, itchy, painful and dry rash. My legs soon followed suit. I did some reading online and discovered that patches of dry, itchy, painful skin behind the knees is one of the most common symptoms of adult-onset eczema. I immediately stopped using all my previous skincare products. The only thing I could apply on my sores that wouldn’t set my skin on fire was plain olive oil. Mmm, yucky!
Luckily my Faithful to Nature packages arrived shortly after, so I could find some relief through the Bee Natural honey and propolis balm that I’d purchased. But both the olive oil and the balm only provide temporary relief; when they’ve soaked into my skin, their effect wears off and the uncontrollable itching starts again.
The patches of flaky, inflamed skin also seem to be slowly spreading… up along my brow, closer to my eyes, across to the back of my other knee… 😦 I’m trying my very best not to give in to the urge to scratch, but sometimes the frustration makes it impossible to resist. The rest of the time I just keep my skin slick with oily balm and try to distract myself somehow.
I have to say, this whole thing is making me very drained. I’m tired of the constant discomfort and annoyed by the curious stares I keep getting. A lot of people have suggested that the eczema may have flared up because of stress, and I suppose that could be true. It has been one heck of a year so far, and even though we have the relief of my husband having a new job, we’re still facing the disruption of moving home in the month ahead. Add to that poor sleep patterns, a haphazard diet, virtually no exercise, substantial changes at work, and major internal shifts of perspective inside my heart… and I guess you do have the potential for an eruption in some form or shape.
But of course I also realise that bemoaning my fate isn’t going to solve the problem. Obviously I am praying for answers and for relief, but my faith isn’t the sit-on-your-hands-and-hope-God-will-work-a-miracle kind. I know I have to research this thoroughly to see if there are lifestyle or dietary changes I could make to alleviate the symptoms.
And I believe I’m most likely to find my answers in changing my lifestyle to do things God’s way – using natural products and eating healthier foods, with fewer steps of production between God’s hand and my plate (or my skin). I don’t see the point of going to the doctor if they’re just going to prescribe cortisone, which I definitely don’t want to use. Finding a good natural topical balm was just the first step. Now I need to see what I can change from the inside.